literally everyone makes me so uncomfortable like everyone and im never going to make friends coz every time i try people say fucked up shit like “you sound like youve been raped” n like….. idk…. its not always that bad but like i just cant get over things anymore. i spent my whole life trying to get over things but ended up just suppressing them and things hit me 10 years later. i dont know what to do. im sabotaging all possible relationships before they start… n some of the ones i already have….
i really need to start being better with my money. i want to be able to go to the castro whenever i want. i want to stop eating out so much so its more of a treat. i need to throw away all the shit ive just hoarded away so my room actually stays clean…..